December 29, 2003
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Where Did We All Go?
Where did we all go this Christmas? Posters and Bloggers all, we seemed to go away
to travel back to the place whence we came. For some of us this was a good place,
for others, myself included, not the space of childhood dreams but the cold reality
of dysfunctional families, the harsh words and bitter candy of parents with failing health
and failed relationships.
Where did we all go this Christmas? It seems the subscriptions I read are all over the
place on this. This is good
! We would be a weaker community this land of Xanga
if all of us shared the same familial pool; inbreeding of the literary bloggedy sort.
I would wonder about myself as well if I only choose to read angry or frustrated Xangans.
Where did we all go this Christmas, well the distance depends on the how far we
fled from the nest, if we fled at all. Some had the family close and comfortable,
the kids whether young or old giving and receiving and showing the spirit of the
season. These bloggers let us know about their thankfulness. Then there were
the others, many bitter and even depressed at what should be a joyous season.
Where did we all go this Christmas? We mostly went to Ambivalence-ville. That
private place where we just don't give a damn and don't hide that fact very well.
What are we doing? What am I doing? I have seen the light in the warmth and
glow and unabashed joy of families, friends, colleagues and what they can do for
your soul at this time of year. I have also seen the mind numbing spirit crushing
depression that settles over some people making this time of year the peak for
suicides. Rant after rant and rave after rave fills the pages of blogs; and yet they
soldier on! Why???
No one makes you more miserable than yourself, get
out of it, get off of it, just enjoy yourself.
I'm living in between these worlds; I have the wonderful light of my girlfriends family,
my good friends, my esteemed colleagues. I have the memory and reality of my own
family's depression and burdens.
I choose the light. Ha, maybe it's a Christmas Light!
Happy New Year.
Comments (1)
I'd like to thank you for subscribing to my site. I too enjoyed reading blogs over the Christmas Holiday. Through these pages we certainly could see inside many peoples lives. I like that you took the time to write about what you felt as you skipped across xangaland. I snickered when I read, "We would be a weaker community this land of Xanga
if all of us shared the same familial pool; inbreeding of the literary bloggedy sort." You're right, of course.
I don't want to assume I know what you meant when you left your comment on my site, so I'd like to ask you to explain. I found it very interesting to the point... I'm writing this to you.
I love constructive criticism. Email me if you would, please.
Happy New Year ~J
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