June 14, 2005

• Missing
  

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  The feeling of missing - or more
  importantly of wanting to miss - arrives on the back of
  expectation.  Expectation has gone wanting and arrives tired (or
  seemingly so) and disappointed.  Playing catch up is not an
  option.  While you could show up with your game face on, run in to
  the arms of where your were meant to be, you of course do not.  At
  this time you want to go missing.  To bathe the supposed wound in
  a poltice of lonely with some liquor thrown in.  As you sit,
  disquieted and liking it, your drinking buddy regret shows up. 
  He's not strong enough to drag you off of your hiding stool and back in
  to the Sun, with friends and the reason you came out in the first
  place.  No, he's just there to remind you you've done this before
  ... remember?  And you didn't want to do it last time, either.

  • 10:48 pm
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